7. Speechless

I was quite emotional today. Part of the reasons is caused by the monthly menstrual cycle, and the other one is partly i feel that I'm being taken for granted. All the while i have this kind of feelings. It really gets even stronger when you're in this industry. Anyway, sorry for not writing any meaningful entries. This entry is just to remind myself to become stronger, and to become resilient of others' attack/ignorance. 

6. Mindset

I had great time today spending time with my kindergarten friend. We have known each other for the past 24 years (roughly there i guess!) But of course, we didn't really know what was happening back then.. memory wasn't well developed yet (but sadly to say that, even till now, my memory is still bad). I guess I was only good in memorizing textbook knowledge as i scored 100% for history subject. But today i am not here to talk about the past, more like just ramble on the happy random-ness. Like what i have mentioned previously, i get used to stay at home and never really like to spend any spare time loitering outside without specific purpose in mind. However i did it today (of coz triggered by the friend visiting me). I shopped quite a bit today (which wasn't the intention to begin with at 1st). I got myself a cute red hat (imagine the red riding hood, and thats the 'red' I'm indicating to). I didn't intend to get it at 1st, but of coz with the constant compliments from your evil gal friend, there was no way out and you just need to go with the flow. So i got it apparently and okay la - i need to admit that it looked not too bad on me la~ (evil grin). And today basically we did  nothing else other than shopping and eating. What i want to emphasize more is the gals talk we had last night. We had a long catch up last night. I went to where she stayed and to keep her company. This friend of mine has a very strong character, yeah, u didn't get me wrong, she is strong in almost every aspects - tough, matured, independent, optimistic (personalities) + right now she's so fit with 'packs' (results from gym). Her intention was just to lose weight like any of the other gals at first, but within few weeks, she got so interested and now she is trained to build her body up. Her perseverance was well praised by the trainers and she is now role model for most of the newbies. I can't deny that she really got me influenced and made me see things in different perspective. She had a hard time before, even now still i guess. But she handled it brilliantly, garnered with the power of law of attractions, she adjusted her mindset and saw things in a total different way. She is a happy person now! In contrast, what i am lacking of is the correct mindset. I always see things in their darkest way. Thats why, i tried something different today - the 1st thing that i did when  i woke up in this morning was setting my own mood (tuned to positive and happy channel). I know it sounded so stupid but it worked! at least it worked for me. Anyway, i still need to work hard on this. Its a homework for me - how to make myself happy and be contented with my life.